What a journey it’s been. Short, but most definitely sweet.
I was introduced to Cacao less than a year ago as a byproduct of embarking on my healing journey. At first, I didn’t see what all the fuss was about. It was difficult to drink, as I’m not used to strong tastes, and I never got that ‘heart opening’ effect everyone spoke of. But I still felt called back to her time and again.
As the intensity of my journey progressed and I was thrown into a full-blown overhaul of my life, my moments with Cacao became few and far between. It was only when I attended my first in person Cacao Ceremony, did I experience that heart opening moment. It was heartbreakingly beautiful. It was a moment where I was finally able to admit to myself what I was truly feeling within. And with that I discovered that I had closed my heart off to the world.
Everything that had happened in the 2 years prior suddenly made sense. All the anger, rage and sadness I had experienced. Feeling like a shell of myself, losing friends, family members and core parts of myself. All because I locked my heart away after a devastating loss.
But since that ceremony, Mama Cacao has rapidly begun to open me up again. I made space for her without expectation, and suddenly I was flooded with realisations, answers to questions I hadn’t even thought to ask, and a deep sense of compassion for myself. Which is something I struggled with all my life.
Not long after this I was presented with the opportunity to train as a Cacao Facilitator. Although I didn’t have a lot of ‘experience’ sitting with Cacao, I felt a deep calling to apply. Having previously looked up Facilitator trainings and always found reasons not to go, with this one there were no reasons. All I thought was, I’ll figure it out. And I did.
As part of my training, I had a month long dieta with Mama Cacao, which allowed me to build a deep relationship with her. And even now, after the training has ended, I still sit with her almost every day.
My journey with myself and with Cacao is still only just beginning. But it has been a powerful, heart opening and eye-opening experience. I am so grateful to build this relationship with her, and honoured to share her with the world. To allow her to change the lives of many other people, just as she has changed mine. And even more honoured to do so as an official Saoro Cacao Facilitator.
I look forward to writing more about Cacao and Me in the future, where I’m sure I will have many more things to share.
But for now, thank you for reading and thank you Mama Cacao for opening my heart and allowing me to start living, and loving, my life again.
Cacao & Me is a series where we’ve asked people to tell us about their relationship with cacao, how they work with it, what impact it’s had on their lives & so on.
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